Monday, June 25, 2007

Baby Steps

My littlest one is finally taking steps!
I say finally because her brother walked early, and she's decided to take her sweet time before she has even had a desire to try!! It's pretty cute, however, to see the determined look she gets in her eye (combined with a little fear) when she does venture out and take some steps.
One other thing thats funny/strange, is how I feel when my baby's start walking...I get this desire for another one! I get sad when I think about it and realize that my baby's almost not a baby anymore!!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Tonight, my treat to myself will be a bowl of chocolate chip ice cream and the movie, "The Quiet Man." I'm going to get into my, "comfies," (PJ's), and snuggle up in my bed and most likely fall asleep before the movie ends. I'm low on energy tonight, and my hubby is watching a special on spiders with my son (who thinks it's totally cool). Not my kinda show, so I'll go enjoy a chick flick. Soon my daughter will be old enough to be my sidekick - that will be fun!
With all of the graduations, church summer camp, and summer activities going on I have been busier than usual. This has caused me to take an unplanned little break from blogging. So, now you know my reasoning for being away for a bit! I look forward to catching up with my blogger friends!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007


I'm back! But I'm too tired to write much. I spent all my time reading and catching up with blogger friends and the PW forum!! Now I'm off to bed to get plenty of rest for a busy day tomorrow. There's catch up to be done on the home front from being gone for the past few days, a meeting with a church member, preparations for my Patch the Pirate Club and Pee Wees on Wednesday night, and all the other stuff that happens with the job title of, "wife," and "momma."
My prayer before bed is that I don't make myself too busy to spend time with the Lord!!

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Well we will be gone for a bit (not too long), as my husband will be speaking for our previous church's Graduation Banquet. We have some traveling to do to get there as it's in a different state. So, I'll be back soon! Bye for now.

Saturday, June 9, 2007

Personality Test!

I guess I'm into tests today?! I found this one over at the makinghome.blogspot.
ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.
Free Jung Word Test (similar to Myers-Briggs)
personality tests by

However, I think I'll need to take this one again later. This doesn't really sound like me.

Friday, June 8, 2007

I Think My Husband Would Agree...

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.
People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.
You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.
Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.


All day today, I was feeling insecure and anxious about having company over tonight. Sometimes, I get so much anxiety about situations that I get really overwhelmed, and I can't shake it! It's not like we don't have people over much either, I mean we have an open door policy, and a lot of people come and go from our home.
Anxiety's not always a problem for me, it seems to sort of pop up at random. Sometimes, I will have anxiety over the littlest things, like while I'm waiting in line at the bank. All of the sudden, I feel like I'm either in danger or I become really afraid that I will do something wrong like forget my pin number, license, etc., or I just feel like everyone is staring and disapproving of me.
I come from a family history of people who "clinically" suffer from anxiety attacks and depression. Some people in my family are on medication for their mental problems, some are only when they feel they need them, and some don't take any medication.
I have never been on medication for anxiety attacks or depression, although I battle off and on with each. There have been times when I've said to myself, "okay, if this gets any worse, I'm going to see a doctor for some help," but it's never gotten to that point. I think some people truly need medication for these things, but of course there's always the folks who abuse it too.
For me the biggest help is to talk about it. Of course, I have to be totally honest with God about what's going on because he knows already anyways. Lately, when the anxiety bubbles up, I try to take a deep breath, and then if my husband is around, I tell him exactly what's causing my anguish. Usually, when I say it out loud, it sounds so silly that I can actually laugh at myself for being so ridiculous.
Of course tonight, after our company arrived, everything went great. I had nothing to be anxious, or stressed about. If only I had known things were going to go so well, I would have had a much better day.
I don't think I've seen the last of my anxiety, but I do think that the Lord helps me through each "attack." It's already gotten easier for me to deal with by just talking about it. Someday, I pray that it goes away completely. I really would rather spend my time and energy on other things!

Monday, June 4, 2007


I have been praying since we moved here for friends. I felt the sting of lonliness about a month after we moved. The initial excitement of the move and all of the newness of everything was wearing off, and reality began setting in.
I came from a church twice the size of the one were at now, that was full of young families my age, and biggest of all, I wasn't the Pastor's wife there (ahhh, the days of being a regular person!) So, moving here, to a small town, a small church full of those of the sunset age (50+) and being the Pastor's wife... I felt pretty lonely.
God has blessed me with a wonderful husband, who is also my best friend, and a girlfriend who I've grown up since junior high and been best friends with since high school. Between the two of them, I have made it through many of life's trials and tribulations, but I still longed for more like-minded fellowship (outside of church services). Well, God has sent me friends since my praying endeavors began, and it's been in some of the most unusual ways.
I've found friendship in one of the seventy year old church elders! (Go figure!) He has been into our home many times and has had a listening ear to many of my sob stories. There is our church's, "Martha," (doesn't every church have at least one of these ladies?) She has been a friend in more practical ways, rather than emotional; but still don't friends come in all forms, in all seasons and in all different kinds of ways. There's been high school and college youth who I have considered friends. They have sat at my dining room table and just wanted to talk about all of the exciting things that life in that stage brings. I have found friends in my kids group that I teach on Wednesday evening. They are usually the first to give a hug or to make me feel special at an unexpected time. Then their is the young moms like me. I have met with a couple of other moms, and it's always an adventure exchanging stories about the different stages our kids are going through, and the crazy and wonderful lives mothers lead. The other place where I have found unexpected fellowship and friendships is online! I think for Pastor's wives, like me, it's a must. Where else can I go and vent about life in the fishbowl?! No one can understand the challenges of the Pastor's wife until they are there themselves...I admit, I never did!
So, God has answered my sobs and pleas for friends in a variety of ways. Many of these friendships I would have never have dreamed of. However, God's used them all to fill my life with the blessings that only friendship can bring!

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Sunday Praises

This month is the first month that our new Nursery Ministry volunteers begin. It was so wonderful to be able to actually be in a church service this morning. It has been 18 mos. since I've heard a message! Afterwards, I felt so renewed and energized, I took lots of notes and sang my heart out (so much my voice was actually tired afterwards!)
After the service was over, and I went to pick my kids up from Nursery, the woman volunteering was smiling, and seemed happy to be able to be of help. I think it really helps having each worker there just once a month. The responsibility gets spread out, so that no one person gets burned out. So, even if it's been crazy, they know that they only have to do it once a month!
I sat in the very front row of church, and loved every minuet of it. I know this probably sounds really vain, but there's not many things that compare to watching my husband preach. To see him doing something that he was born to do, to see him in his element...I think any wife, even those not married to Pastors might be able to relate. Like the Fire Fighters wife, getting to see her husband fight fires, or the Baseball Players wife, seeing her husband play baseball. Of course, I don't think Hollywood will be making any action packed movies about Pastors any time soon. I mean, fighting fires and playing baseball are a little more dangerous and appealing to most people than a Sunday message. However, seeing my husband doing what he loves, and what God destined him to do is a wonderful thing for this wife to watch!